ADHD, Autism and me: Meltdown milkshake anyone?

I’d gone 8 days without a meltdown. 8 days. 8 days of meetings and zooms, of arrangements and chats, eye contact and conversations, dinner parties and hosting, digging and dancing, eating proper and sleeping well, planning and working, attempting to engage the hyperfocus, being the person I needed to be. But there I was yesterday afternoon, head hitting and swearing, raging and shaking, losing it because an app lost my bearings as my AuADHD mind temporarily lost mine. There was no warning, to play book rumble, no signpost in that particular Maccy D car park at that particular time of what was to come. Just the blow-up. Continue reading ADHD, Autism and me: Meltdown milkshake anyone?

ADHD, Autism and me: waiting

First, it was the lights. Then the extractor fan, then the builders. Then the lights. Oh, the lights. My brain bickers as the lights flicker. Flicker, flicker, flicker. Waiting, waiting, waiting. 2, 4, 7, 12, 20 minutes late. The time passing by, ticking as loud in my head as the fan in the ceiling. Overloaded and over here as I wait my turn. Wait, wait, … Continue reading ADHD, Autism and me: waiting