I could say I was here to tell you my Outfit Of The Day origin story. But that would make me sound like a right banker. And I’m not a banker. If I were my fight for autistic-appropriate NHS therapeutic support would have been won years ago – with an obliging bank card and a private health insurance provider. No, I’m no banker. Instead, I’m … Continue reading Outfit of the Day origin story anyone?
One of the worst thing about living with Borderline Personality Disorder is the grinding depression, the darkness that for no reason descends upon my soul and takes root, leaving me cold to joy, feeling lost and utterly alone. Thankfully it isn’t a permanent fixture and I’ve learnt over the years to attempt to tackle it with distractions before it hits too deep with music always being … Continue reading A Perfect BPD Distraction on Time To Talk Day
Writing about BPD is never easy. The crippling self-doubt, the unrelenting standards, the anxiety, the fear of being judge and the endless overthinking makes being open and honest a challenge. One day I’m all for it, determined to tackle the stigma head on, the next I’m fearful of being seen as difficult, weak, as unfit for purpose. This continual state-of-head affairs ensures anxiety reigns but … Continue reading The Missus, Me and BPD cartoon
Today I am an Arsenal fan. Today I love house music. Today I’m keen on the odd cake. Today I have borderline personality disorder (BPD), anxiety and chronic longterm depression. A diagnosis I live with. Yesterday, today and tomorrow. Since my diagnosis in 2010 I’ve fought then given up then fought again to live with it. I’ve bashed my head hard against the pauper NHS … Continue reading World Mental Health Day: Smash the stigma and demand parity in treatment
Another week, another batch of stories about mental health. Another week, another soul I consider a friend in trouble because of their mental health. Another week, another plea on social media for understanding as the damaged try to out run their demons. And another week when I feel helpless against this sea of pain. All the talk in Westminster and the media is about reduction of … Continue reading Drowning not waving: Fight the stigma by providing the support
Today has been nominated as Time To Talk day by mental health campaigners Time To Change. The idea? Spark conversation and speak the words so many don’t want to hear. Words like I have a mental health issue. In my case chronic long term depression and borderline personality disorder. Words that, unlike the meds, aren’t easy to swallow. Words that condemn, spark gossip, fuel prejudice. Yep … Continue reading Time to talk, time to change
Today on Facebook, somebody responded to Gary Speed’s untimely death by questioning him how he could do it to his family. Now I expected to be angry at the jokes but the anger I felt to this response to his death got to me. The whole reasoning behind suicide is you lose all ability to reason. You don’t think about anyone else anymore because you … Continue reading Gary Speed
Wildblood and Queenie 